my adventures

Maybe its time for an update!

2006-10-29T18:12:00.000-05:00

Wow been a while. Nothing much has happened since I last blogged. I mean most of September and October were really hectic, filled with Scholarship applications, seminars and assignments! Its awesome though, after that seminar was over I was on such a high for some reason!

I mean it was in front for like 100 ppl in my year and like 5 profs, so it was pretty nerve wrecking, but still it felt great to be up there and just getting it over and done with! Once the first few slides were over I felt totally comfortable! This gives me hope for being a professor, I mean if I can do this in front of 100 ppl my own age and in my own program then I can probably talk in front of 100ppl younger than me..

Its kind of unfortunate that Seroude really killed me with his questions, but whatever... by the end of this thesis I'll be able to have all the answers to them!

As for the wanting to do field work, I still do, but my chances of getting a scholarship are slim to non, so I may not be able to work with Steve. However, there are a few other good opportunities that I've been looking into and I'll have to email the ppl to see what they are like! I'm planning either Ottawa or Montreal! That should be fun :D

Halloween party was fun too! Its strange to think that we are in 4th year and this is the last time we are going to be hanging out with these friends for Halloween! Well lets not be that fatalistic, but the chances of having us ALL together for a Halloween definitely get slimmer after this year!

I can't believe how fast the time has gone! I feel like it was just yesterday that I was in gr. 12 and I remember feeling so big.. Now I'm getting to the end of 4th year and I feel.. even bigger?

I'm getting ready to move on to the next stage of my life (i.e. Grad school) but the closer it gets to graduation the more I start to look back and think how great my undergrad experience has been and how great the people I've met are! :D

There are still a few more months so I'll have to make the best out of them!

Also as a final note, 4th year has been the best so far!

Bahamas

2006-08-31T10:13:00.000-04:00

So, I'm back from my Bahamas trip and I have to say it was a really fun time :)

The more time that passes with me being home, the more I remember it with fond memories. Even though we trudged through the mangroves for hours and hours a day in the sweltering heat, it felt like a great sense of accomplishment!

The sun and warmth were so awesome even though the majority of time we were sweating! I don't mind a little bit of sweat in the summer time (see air-conditioning post) :). I found the fieldwork challenging while I was there, but now that I really think about it, I wouldn't mind doing that for 2 years of a masters. Since Steve (the prof) would like someone to do a masters and basically live in the Bahamas, I am now leaning towards that.. Of course this is a VERY tentative plan since just 2 days ago I was not sure if I wanted to be a prof anymore and was thinking about being a teacher.

The thing is, I get lazy and then I get motivated.. it all depends on the mood of the day/hour/minute. However I do believe that being in the Bahamas or somewhere warm and sunny would do me a lot of good, and that working there would be a challenging but amazing experience.

I always plan ahead and think too much about the future. It sometimes leads to me being discouraged about life. However what I don't do enough is take risks. And having the chance to do a masters in the Bahamas would be a risk, but yet I think it would be an amazing risk worth taking. Plus I loved the profs and even the research was fun, had it not been for so many hours a day! (the last four days we were in the mangroves for 8+ hours counting fish, wading through knee deep mud that felt like quicksand, and seining the creeks at low tide when the water would get to ~42°C!)

All in all, tentative plans as of now are to do well this year in school, see if I like the whole molecular biology thing, apply for some master's scholarships, and potentially try to get in at Steve Cooke's lab to go back to the Bahamas! :)

We'll see.. maybe tomorrow I'll blog about a different idea, but for today (and yesterday) this one sounds good to me!

Evolution?

2006-05-14T14:59:00.000-04:00

I don't know if anyone else feels like this, but whenever I watch a movie in which a man protects a woman or a baby, I can't help but feel attracted to him! (ok.. unless he's incredibly ugly)

.. well today's example is Aeon Flux, in which the main guy protects/tries to protect Charlize theron.. even though she's the "assassin" and he's a sissy when it comes to weapons. Even so, I found him very attractive because he clearly showed his emotions for her, and tried to protect her the whole time! :) He also had an air about him.. sort of brooding and wise.

(he's not someone I'd usually find attractive at first glance; see pic)

I also find that I am easily attracted to guys that try to keep going even after they are wounded.. prime example in this movie when he got shot and then tried to keep going even though he had 2 bullets in him! I mean that's determination! And he was leaning on her for support and was almost losing consciousness.. Something about having a weakness past the macho, brooding exterior... raawrr :P

What would have made me like him even more is if he had cried at some point, or if something had gone terribly wrong, so much so that he couldn't help but cry.. but then again I like my happy endings. (I'm pretty sure that character would have cried should Charlize Theron have died..)

So, getting to the point.. is this evolutionarily adaptive? I mean for a woman being attracted to older, brooding, protective types of men who go on even after they are hurt, have weaknesses, and show their emotions for the people they love?...

I think so! haha and since the movie was directed by a woman, i'm pretty sure that is what she was going for. Or at least that's what I like to speculate.

Any opinions?

A month later!

2006-05-10T19:51:00.000-04:00

Wow.. its already been a month since I last blogged? That is a bit crazy!

The days are going by so quickly I don't even realize it.. I mean this molecular biology course has been so hectic, thank god its over on friday! I finally get to breathe.

Hmm quick note on what has changed/happened since my last blog.. I have a new computer which is very nice! I've been single for a year now, so I think its time to look for a b/f. I'm in no rush though. Most important for the time being is the need to find a job! I'll just have to go applying on Monday!

I'll probably blog again soon.. I always get good ideas, but by the time I get to write them down I've forgotten them.. lol the trouble with being scatter-brained!

The year is almost over!

2006-04-09T10:09:00.000-04:00

YES! Only final's lefts, and those shouldn't be too bad since they are pretty evenly spaced!

Then my 2 week course from May 1-12, and I'm free for the summer :)
Then starts the job hunt, followed by volunteering with the two profs.

I got the thesis I wanted, with the antifreeze protein anti-bodies, and Gerri got offers from two professors as well!! hehe so we are all set for our honours next year. At least that's no more stressing over that!

haha I'm a little bit stressed out about flying to the Bahama's in August since its going to be 4 planes there and then 4 planes back! I've never been afraid of flying before, but this time I'm going to be all alone, and some are going to be SMALL planes! lol Someone help me overcome this fear before I leave!

Ok that's it for now, must keep working on my lab!

A GRIZZLY BEAR.

2006-03-24T17:08:00.000-05:00

A GRIZZLY BEAR.

You are the Grizzly. A strong, but good willed person who is in touch with both people and your surroundings. You like the social life, but you also like quiet moments alone simply relaxing and doing nothing. You have an inner temper, which when lashed out upon any unsuspecting victim - can be scary.

So yea i'm a grizzly bear in the test of what animal i am most like.. which sounds cute except for the last part.. I'm scaring myself.. lol

Try it out and let me know what u are! :D

I know one cat already (eh Claire, you manipulator :P)

http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=16559

Le tired

2006-03-20T21:03:00.000-05:00

So tired... lol this week has already been super hectic.. and its only Monday! Luckily I don't have that much to do for the rest of the week!

The weekend was fun as it was my dad's 46th B-day party so of course we did what anyone in their right mind would do... DANCED! haha

Lets see, what else. The kitty is losing weight which kinda sucks. He was 7.6 kg last week monday and today he is 7.4kg. He's starting his insulin shots on wednesday and hopefully after that everything will be good :D I'm feeling optimistic about the prognosis and I'm becoming rather fond of the kitten, since he slept in my bed yesterday and was doing happy paws to my feet for half the night! :)

Hmm other than that, there is really nothing much going on. I'm still hoping for that thesis dealing with antifreeze proteins in fish.. we'll see how it goes :P Also I'm planning on taking a spring course (2 weeks) which is "Techniques in molecular biology"! now doesn't that just sound like fun :)

Ok well that's it! I'll write more later when I'm not as tired... Off I go to bed

Sebastian has Diabetes :(

2006-03-16T17:58:00.000-05:00

Poor little kitty. He's been getting kinda thin lately and we really didn't know if it was just stress from having to deal with Io, old age, or something more serious. It turned out to be diabetes, and as of monday we'll be giving him regular insulin injections :(

It kind of seems to me that an era is coming to an end. The era of Addie and Sebastian. I hope that the little guy'll hang on for a few more years, since we caught it early, but he looks pretty scrawny and sad, sleeps a lot, and his back legs look a bit wobbly...

It seems weird, how life cycles. Addie died; Julian and Io were born. The grandma's will die, but their children live on, they will die, but us "kids" will live on (I'll stop there). Inevitably we will all die, but our children will live on (if everything works out how it should). Maybe I'm in a weird mood, but it makes me a bit sad.

Even seeing all of the Gr. 12's being led around campus, happy and bright-eyed about getting into university, it seems like we are growing up.

When did we stop playing?

When did we stop asking the question "what do u want to be when you grow up?" of our peers, and more importantly of ourselves?

So that makes me come to a turning point.. A point when I could either sulk about what used to be, how we are going to die, and how nothing will ever be the same... OR I could suck it up and be a bit more optimistic! :) (I choose the second option)

We are grown up, and its time to make some changes in the world. We finally can!
Stop this damn global warming, and mass destruction of ecosystems! woot, now i'm pumped! :)
To sound super cliche, lets make some positive changes so that our chidren can enjoy the world we left for them, and not constantly have to worry..

I'm just happy that I am alive to have witnessed all these great things in life so far! :)

(wow this post went so off topic, but lets just say that even though Addie is gone, and Sebastian has diabetes, they each were loved and continue to be.)

Time's a tickin'

2006-03-10T16:23:00.000-05:00

Wow.. I have so little time to figure out exactly what I want to do in life.

I have to figure out soon (within the next two weeks) how I want to spend next year. And by this I mean which lovely professor I shall be doing an honours thesis with. Of course there have been many reasurances that "everyone gets a placement" , but it may not be one of your top choices, since its a very competitive program.

I assume that only a handful of professors get about a million emails asking then to be supervisors, while the rest get only a few, and wait for those students who weren't assertive enough, to fall into their laps. Being one of these less assertive students myself, who didn't volunteer at any labs, nor talked to professors much ahead of time, I may just have to settle for a thesis that doesn't necessarily interest me outright. Although I do have hopes that I'll learn to enjoy what I do no matter who I am placed with :)

On a lighter note, once this is over I can relax and try to concentrate on finals/ finding a job for the summer/ volunteering in some sort of lab/ starting my thesis! *phew those sound much less stressful*

Also there is my field course to the Bahamas in August (I got my first pick of places) to make me feel better! :) Gonna be on Harbour Island looking at "Tropical Island Ecosystems: Ecology and Conservation"! So that should be fun!

I've never been to a tropical Island before, so that should be an amazing time! (Although.. those spiders *shudder*) hehe I'll just have to get over my fear while i'm there! Can't be running for cover at every sign of a spidey.. I'm sure there will be lots!

Well that's about it from me, for now!

Lots to tell, and yet so little..

2006-02-07T22:01:00.000-05:00

Lots has happened in my life since last I blogged. I mean, Christmas passed, New Year's passed and its almost Valentine's day. Not that I base time on when different holidays pass, but still. Either way, I had an awesome time in Paris and bought some stuff. But everyone here already knows that so I won't bore you to death. I'll just post some pics.

I am feeling kinda shitty about the SWEP job. I havn't been contacted by any of the ppl I am interested in working with, and if i don't get chosen I know its going to be solely based on the fact that my grades aren't good enough. And the worst thing is that I KNOW if I were just given a chance at an interview I would most likely get it! I'm not bad at interviews and I just want a chance to prove my worth.

I suppose I could always start my honour's thesis during the summer, volunteer at a lab with a prof, and work somewhere downtown (i.e. retail). But I would have prefered to work in a lab over the summer.. *sigh* what can u do, i still have some time to figure it out.

On a happier note, everyone I know has been getting the jobs they wanted/applied for, so maybe all that good luck will spread to me as well and I'll get my SWEP position (cross your fingers for me!) :D

Anyways lets see, what else.. the classes I have this semester are fun and I'll be doing a field course later on in the year so that'll be fun! Reading week is coming up so that'll give me time to catch up on all the readings I SHOULD have been doing!

And to finish off, just a cute pic of the happy antics in our house! (incase u can't get all the action: baby is crawling, granny is vacuuming, Io is trying to eat the vacuum and u can see someone's moving leg in the right of the pic!)

Twice in one month?

2005-12-16T23:25:00.000-05:00

Yes, I'm updating again, for the second time this month!

I'm in the middle of finals, and of course that inevitably leads me to do ANYTHING but study! :)

Lets see, I had a good topic. Oh that's right, I wanted to talk about extremes and people who are 'too' extreme.

First of all its very hard to define extreme. What seems extreme to some people seems perfectly legitimate to others (eg. skydiving!). But I recently had to read a bunch of essays for my Sex and Religion class dealing with the way sex is dealt with in each religion. The majority of these essays were from a feminist perspective, and that is what I wanted to talk about.

I don't really have anything against feminists, but I don't personally consider myself one, since most are too extreme (in my opinion). A lot of the articles I read talked about a male dominated society in which women have little/no say, be it about contraception, abortion, marriage, etc. These statements were even more persuasive when relating certain Islamic societies like those of Saudi Arabia. They basically went on to say that women need not only look after children (which men pressure them to do) but have their own dreams and goals. I totally agree with this, but I would also like to have children and a husband! They made it seem like these were no longer legitimate goals for a woman to have.

It seems like they are trying to over-compensate and revert the world to being a women-dominated world as opposed to male-dominated. This may sound naive, but can't we just have a co-existing world? :P

Maybe they (feminists) just need to get their point across and basically try too hard to do it (in my opinion). Or maybe I am just lucky that I didn't grow up in a community where women are looked as non-human beings to be ruled over. I mean in Canada women's rights are almost equal to mens and I have to say that I'm happy about that!
...Or maybe it is because the majority of the articles were written by lesbian feminists and they are even more adamant about a woman oriented society than non-lesbians?

I don't know, what do you guys think? Too extreme? Or is that what needs to happen in order for there to be progressive change?

Either way for some fun now! Here are some pictures of our fun snow day outside with baby and doggie! :D

An update! :P

2005-12-11T15:29:00.000-05:00

Well, I am finally updating, and its going to be a large jumble of things that have happened since last time I did!

Ok well, yesterday Gerri and I went to TO and saw our friend Tat who we havn't seen in like.. 5 years! :D that was really fun! (pic, taken by me so my head is slightly cut out :P)

We basically did everything! Went to eat indian food, shopped at the eaton centre, had coffee at starbucks, watched a movie (Narnia, which is really good) and went clubbing!!

haha and I might add we all got hit on like crazy! :P (mostly by desperate guys, but what can you do?) This trip was really something I needed because with two finals last week, it just makes it so much better to get away and do something fun! And it was really great seeing her again cause even though we have all changed, we still have lots in common :D

Hmm other than that I've had two finals so far and they went pretty well :D just 2 more to go and it'll be over!

I'm also applying for a SWEP (summer-work experience program) position through Queen's and if I get it I'll be working with hamsters and changes in their hormone levels when they eat fatty foods, etc. :P It sounds pretty cool and if I get it my title will be "Behavioural neuroendocrinology research assistant" ! lol now doesn't that just sound cool and a little intimidating?! Also I'll be making $12 an hour, and have 35hours a week.. so that's not TOO shabby :D

Right now I can't wait for the Christmas vacation to start! and I can't believe that I havn't bought ANYONE any Christmas presents yet! (it'll all have to be done on the 21st after 4pm).. which is when my last final ends! But at least I have some ideas of what to buy for everyone, so that's good! heh

Julian is a such a big sweety (I mean just look at the picture!!) He's growing really fast, has 2 front teeth and wants to climb on everything! :D

I have a few ideas of what to get him for Christmas hehe.. but i don't know if he is going to be too spoiled.. Ahh well, I don't mind, I'm allowed to spoil him! haha I mean he's SOOO CUTE, how can you NOT spoil him!!!

Little puppy is growing up too.. in fact he's not that little anymore, and if anyone wants to see a chrismas dog then here is a picture for you. Io sleeping, with a bunch of garlands on him that were not used for the Christmas tree this year :P

He has a habit of chewing EVERYTHING that he can get at, but I think it'll pass.. well I HOPE it will pass, because he is still teething! :D

Oh and just to say something totally random... I FORGOT to volunteer last week!! I felt so guilty and bad! I mean I volunteer every monday at St. Mary's for 3 hours and last monday I was studying for my bio exam and totally forgot! I only remembered at around 3pm (i'm supposed to volunteer from 11am-1pm) and had to call them and basically apologize. (I'm really bad at lying and even though the idea of saying I was sick crossed my mind, I didn't go with it :P) Now I have to remember to go tomorrow, or else I'll feel even worse!

Ok well that's about it for now! Hope everyone who reads this thing has a very merry Christmas and a happy New-year! I'll try to update more often, but with everything going on i'm not sure if that'll be possible!! :P

randomness!

2005-10-16T00:19:00.000-04:00

I think its high time for an update.

I'm just sitting here, at my computer, wondering whether to go to bed or to update this little blog of mine. Listening to some of the songs on my list I feel inspired to write something brilliant and earthshattering, but I don't think I can :P So I'll stick to my usual.

1.) I would like to find a boyfriend. I miss the warmth and love you get, also the butterflies would be fun again. (please don't mistake this for missing my ex. I do not. I just want another person there to share things with.)
I have had my eye on someone, but I don't know if it'll work out, so I'll write later as to the verdict!

2.) Questionably more important than the first, I have decided against going to medschool, which again prompted one of those oh so bitter arguments with my parents. Whatever.. its my life and that's that. I have decided to do a masters instead.

I know my dreams of becoming a doctor may have been short lived but I feel like this (in my life) is a good career move and one must go through these hard decisions in order to grow and to truly decide what they want in life :D (that's it. No more justifications.)

On a lighter note Io is growing like a sponge and getting cuter and cuter by the day. Even thought he can't go down the stairs yet! lol :P He is losing his baby teeth which is prompting him to bite us all at any chance he gets, but I can live with that :D haha he doesn't mean to hurt anyone.

I still miss Addie. I think her and Io would have had so much fun together. I still think about her and what an amazing dog she turned out to be..

I have so many things to say that they just come out as a big blur of random thoughts. However I will say that at the moment (other than having a million assignments/tests to prepare for next week) I am happy and content and have nothing too great to worry about :D

I do tend to worry too much, so tonight I can sleep soundly knowing that the world will not end if I didn't get what I wanted to get done today. I have tomorrow, and that will be better! And I mean that in an optimistic sense, not in a way that a procrastinator might! :P

Good night everyone!

To be or not to be?

2005-09-04T16:31:00.000-04:00

I have recently decided to go into med school. Recently being yesterday!

I am writing this because I have heard that a goal written down is twice as powerful as one just spoken. And I really don't want this to be one of those grand ideas I get once in a while which ends up falling through (as all of my getting in shape/working out ideas have in the past). I really want to stick with this one. I think a career in medicine would be extremely fulfilling and rewarding. I am a social person and love to interact and help people who need it. In addition, I'll have a secure income from which I'll be able to support my children/family. And, I can work on my own schedule and take time off as I see fit. This is the ultimate lifestyle in my opinion (and a way I can spend time with my family) :D The only problem is the actual GOING through medschool. But if I try hard I think I'll be able to do it!

Now I just need to get more information about the process, what I'll need to do in order to get good MCAT scores, potential med. schools of interest, and so on.

I have decided that most likely I'll have a child during my residency and then another one after I am done residency (I'm planning on having 2 or 3 children). This of course depends on whether I have the right man to have kids with! :D

I don't know yet what I am going to be specializing in, but I think I'll eventually figure it out after the 4 years of med. school.

As another benefit to being a doctor, I won't always have to be clueless as to what might be "wrong with me" when I.. have an ear ache, or a mole that is quite large. Not that I am going to self medicate myself and my family, but it will help in understanding general problems and knowing how to handle them :D (kinda like my mom does now! hehe which i like.. even though sometimes she freaks me out more than she means to!)
well that's it for now! :D Any comments or questions? heh

"It's the end of the world as we know it"

2005-08-31T15:59:00.000-04:00

I recently read an article about ozone depletion and I can't help but get depressed.

I mean, from ozone depletion, to deforestation, to CO2 levels rising, to cow's methane production... It just seems that we are screwing this world up faster than we can restore it! Most of these natural disasters (i.e. the tsunami and Hurricane Katrina) and extinctions are to blame on humans. I wish that somehow we could speed up the invention of new technology (even though this would probably not be the ideal solution for our problems.)

The ideal solution would have been to stop doing all these things we have been doing! However we have gone too far already. It appears now that the only hope for restoration of the earth is through advancement in technology. The sad thing is, if we hadn't have gotten more advanced in the first place, then we wouldn't have gotten into this mess.

I feel so horrible for all the things that humans have done to the earth (and all the things still happening) that I prefer not to think about them at all. And when I don't think about them, they still have a sneaky way of getting into my thoughts (because I feel bad about not thinking about them). As if I wasn't already a constant worrier! :P

Argh! can't we just be nice to the planet? Then again that would involve a lot of effort, and most people wouldn't be willing. I don't even know if I am willing.

(btw I am not excluding myself when I say people and humans. I am just as much to blame as the next person, and I wish I wasn't..)

I know this is an ongoing debate, and I really believe that if more people thought about the environment and made a consious effort to preserve it, use less energy, buy hybrid cars, then eventually, things might start looking up :D I have faith that we as humans will get ourselves out of the mess we created, I just hope its not too late for other creatures that bore the brunt of it.. and at the risk of sounding incredibly cheesy, we humans seem to be the much feared "weapon's of mass destruction."

*sigh*

PUPPY!

2005-08-18T11:05:00.000-04:00

Hey there everyone! Sorry I havn't updated in a while, but I've been busy! :)

Now on to the better news! I got my puppy yesterday! He is the cutest 8 week old ball of fluff in the world! :) and his name is Io as I've mentioned before!

He's a rough collie (tri-color) hehe and in the picture you'll see his ears glued down so they can be kinda droopy when he's older :) I have mixed feelings about that because they look really cute droopy, but you are GLUING your puppies ears down!!! (not as bad as cutting off its tail and cutting its ears like in Dobermans I must admit)

Either way he is so good! I can't believe a puppy can be this good! He was a little rowdy in the car, but overall a very good puppy with no "accidents" what-so-ever. Did I mention he is almost house trained?? He hasn't had 1 accident yet in the house, not even over-night and with the exception on a little bit of water on the hardwood (which might have been Sebastian trying to frame him :P) he just waits patiently to go outside!

Speaking of Sebastian, he seems to be handling the new puppy sitation pretty well :) He's a sweety and is a little scared so hides behind the couch. But he isn't hissing or anything and I'm fairly certain that they will learn to get along :)

Also he didn't make a noise during the night! Gerri and I slept in the den, ready to comfort him if need be, but he let us sleep just fine! (little did he know that we both kept waking up and thinking "why isn't the little puppy whining??" hehe)
ok well that's it for now! If anyone has any questions or comments, or wants more pics I'll be happy to oblige! :)

(p.s. I don't know what happened to the pictures and why they are so random! but oh well at least they are super cute!!) :)

For the love of Dog! (hehe i'm so clever)

2005-07-27T22:32:00.000-04:00

Well its been a while since I posted and I thought I should keep everyone up to date with what is going on. Addie is gone. The house is quite and alone without her presense. But, inevitably life goes on, and so here I am updating what's happened since we lost her.

I turned 20, and it was a fun weekend spent at home. A lot of the time was spent looking at what breed of dog to buy and what puppies to look for. Happily we have found that a Collie would be the perfect breed for us and have set out to look for a new puppy to fill our hearts with joy :)

I want to explain to those of you wondering how we could get over Addie so fast, that its not getting over her. And it isn't replacing her either.
Every time we are at home we feel her missing, and think that she'll come up the stairs or around the corner and plop herself down to sleep in the room. We miss the companionship and unconditional love that only a dog can bring and we even thought of buying another dog while Addie was still alive.

We won't be replacing Addie even if we love this new dog as much as we loved her. They will both have distinct and seperate places in our hearts and neither will replace the other. Its like loving two different people. We have the capacity to love more than one person, and so we have the capacity to love more than one dog :)

The new pup will be most likely be called Io (like Jupiter's moon) and even though I have a few pics of puppies we have been looking at, I'm not going to post any until we find the one we really want. :)

So that's about it..
I love you Addie. We all do :)

The Greatest Dog; The Saddest day.

2005-07-15T22:56:00.000-04:00

My dog died today. My amazing, beautiful dog died today. At the age of 9 (she was going to be 10 in December). At 8:45 this morning my older sister came into my room and told me that Addie had died. On the short walk over to the phone to talk to my mom I had already started crying.

She was the sweetest and most unconditionally loving animal one could ask for. She was completely non-judgemental and an amazing companion. Anyone who met her fell in love with her (unless of course she was barking at them..but she was a completely harmless, yet protective doggie). She would get jelous if all attention wasn't always on her and start yapping at you to give her attention. She would lay in the tightest spaces and you'd have to watch out not to hit her when getting up from your chair. She'd jump and run around frantically when you said "are we going for a walk?" (razhodka in Bulgarian). Even at 9 she was a puppy at heart, always pulling and tugging on her leash no matter how many times she'd been outside that day.

I feel really sad. I will never get to look at her again. I will never get to hug her, or talk to her again. She will never again sleep in my room and get me up at 6am. to open the door for her so she could go see my dad. She will never again whine, or even bark when the doorbell rings. She will never get scared of lighting or the fire-detector going off and want to come into my room for protection (from me of all people!!).

We'll never brush her again, and get mad at the amount of hair she could shed. We'll never again tell her off for licking her bum, or her paws when they were bleeding (too much running on pavement, again she wanted to run so much and even that didn't bother her). Never again will she have that cheeky look on her face when she knew she had done something wrong, (which was very rare anyways) when her ears would slump and she'd look at you so sweetly. We'll never play with the hose again, her running around in circles over and over chasing the water; or have snow-ball fights (like those we had in Regina) when she would chase the snow-balls flying accross the yard.

There are so many memories to recall that I can't even begin to imagine writing them all. I miss her so much already and when I go back to Kingston tomorrow it will be made worse. That was her place, her house and she will no-longer be a presence in it.

She has been through so much with us. Through thick and thin, in Regina and in Kingston (and even in Toronto) that its like losing a family member. Her memory will never be erased. She will always be in our thoughts.

I love you Addie, you were the best dog a person could ask for, and I hope your life with us was as happy as our lives were made by you.

Another pic and some random thoughts

2005-07-12T23:27:00.000-04:00

A pic of (from left to right) Galeto (my awesome cuzzie) Me, my twin sister Gerri, and the little tiny cutie of cuteness Julian!! (which was taken this weekend after all our awesome haircuts and during the festivities of 2 anniversaries!)

Anyways today was not too eventful. But I would like to talk about something. It has to do with the "high" you get from being liked of from those fleeting moments of liking someone. Is it normal to be that way? I mean just as an example with the hottie at the pub . I looked at him for a brief moment and I thought "wow he is so attractive", after-which I felt the need to keep looking at him and eventually ask him to dance. I mean he is just a random guy at a random pub.

I wonder to myself, is it something that I do to subconsciously keep myself pre-occupied? Is it some weird primal instinct? lol cause when I was with my ex I never had feelings like that. I didn't feel the need to look at other guys, or to constantly try to gain their attention. In fact I was totally content with having his attention and only his :) I do think it would be really easy to settle into a routine like that again, but I just wonder, is my feeling of wanting to be liked coming from me being insecure, or me wanted a man's love again (not so much physically but mentally :P). I guess the only one that can answer that question is me, and since I currently don't have a love interest I shall persevere! :)

But I do wonder if others feel like that on occasion. I love having a crush on someone. You watch for every move, every inclination that that other person might possibly like you. He looks at you and you think "wow he must like me" or you obsess about being with them, and how awesome it would be. :P Seriously though, most of the people I know aren't single, and until recently I wasn't either, so these feelings (which I remember having for a certain someone -- A.) are kind of like a drift down memory lane. Lets hope the next time I have a serious crush it will end better than that one did.. haha :P

Either way I would appreciate comments on these little thoughts of mine hehe! :)

Experiences

2005-07-10T18:51:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm back from kingston and wow I had so much fun! We celebrated my parents and my sister's anniversaries, danced, went shopping.. what more can a girl ask for? Especially when she's in the company of a cousin, sisters, parents, aunt and uncle, LITTLE BABY, and friends! :) Man do I ever love dancing? hah I mean we danced at home on Fri. and that was awesome cause if u know my parents, you know that there will be dancing at my house! aha good dancing, to good dance songs! :) We all (Gerri, Galeto, and I) got haircuts and then the next day my cousie and I went to the mall and I got me a nice shirt, shoes, some earrings and bracelets and we went out to dance that night away! :)

That is where things went a little.. well weird.. :P First of all there was a really really attractive guy who I kept looking at and everyone was telling me to go ask to dance. So I went, and he said "maybe later" lol.. but he sounded really nice and looked pretty shy. Also he was from Montreal cause he had an accent so I'm not tooooo upset about that. Then, my ex, his brother and their regular "posse" showed up (cause there is like 1 place to go in kingston to dance..) Either way he came to say hi and I said "hi, sorry I don't really want to talk to you" and he left and that was that! :) I mean I kinda expected all the feelings about him to come rushing back when I saw him.. but they really didn't! lol (so that's good) :P

Later on in the night another guy (KINDA cute, short and blond) came to dance with me, and we talked a bit.. he's in nursing :P Then he left and a bit later another guy came to dance with me (smoker and not really my type but oh well..) lol anyways I spent the rest of the night dancing with him and my cousie so that was fun! :) Found out that he was the manager of Futureshop in kingston... oooo.. hehe I didn't give him my phone number or anything cause he just assumed that I didn't have one in kingston (since i told him i was living in TO) and I didn't say that I did in fact have one :P
Either way there go at least SOME of my inhibitions! I mean

1.) I asked a hottie to dance (even tho I got shot down) :P
2.) I danced with two "relatively" hot guys.. (lets just say that I could see other people thinking they are hot.. not so much me tho.. :P)
3.) I kissed the second guy goodbye (just a tiny peck, but still its something if you know me!)

And no this doesn't mean that I'm a slut now, I am just trying to be less inhibited :) And I think its working.. lol I didn't feel attracted to either of the two guys I danced with, but then again I'm not looking for anyone at the moment, and I'm definitely looking for someone who's in University, or out of uni. with a steady (good) job. I want someone who I've been friends with for a while, and someone who I admire and respect (to build that up takes longer than one dance.. no duh :P). Let's just say that my ideal place for meeting guys doesn't include a bar, club, pub or any place like that, but that places like that have a tendency of boosting your self-confidence! hah :)

Either way I had lots of fun and danced a lot and now I'm a little bit sad cause everyone went home and I have to work tomorrow! Damn it guys come to TO again and lets hang out!!!!!!! lol :P
(oh and Gale, you need to get your ass to Canada more often! and don't forget to look at yourself in the mirror, its very important, especially since you are so hot!! :) )
hehe and that's about it for me! :P

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

2005-07-02T21:39:00.000-04:00

Have you ever found yourself losing TOTAL respect for your manager? I just did. It wasn't like he said one thing that made this happen. For the past weeks he's been taking me for granted (e.g. making me work extra hours on days I was supposed to have off, having me come early when I wasn't supposed to, and making me stay and clean the store after store hours without pay). Yesterday I felt the brunt of it since he got in a minor argument with this girl (Nicole) and sent her home, and for the rest of the day (Canada day = which almost everyone gets off and goes shopping!) it was only 3 of us working. Talk about decency. I'm sorry you and her don't get along, but did he not notice that we NEEDED her in order to deal with all of the customers? So suck it up loser! lol :P To make it worse, he said ealier today that another Softmoc store beat us for business yesterday and then blamed it on Nicole leaving early... argh those are some of my job frustrations. I hate that guy with a passion and I really can't believe I have to put up with his crap for another 2 months!

Oh and he feels the need to tell me every time he thinks a woman is attractive who walks into the store, or whether she has "sweet, sweet, sweet stuff" refering to her breasts! And he puts down my co-workers (Ana and Nicole) in front of me! Why? I don't know. Its not like i'm senior management or anything. I am just the same as them and he is telling me things they are doing wrong and why he thinks they are lazy. Basically he is just a big unprofessional loser and I can't believe I am devoting so much of my blog to a person who doesn't deserve it. I do think this rant was necessary for my sanity though!!! :P

At least Canada day at the beaches was fun! We went to dinner (had amazing ribs), followed by a small pub (where I tried a rather nasty beer that was supposed to taste like chocolate, but ended up tasting like flowers). Then we went to the actual beach and watched the fire-works! :) Julian was rather excited about those, staring straight at them and probably wondering what the hell they were! heh. The only downside to yesterday was that it got chilly outside and its still pretty cold today, but oh well that'll go away soon! :)

Also yesterday would have been my 2 year anniversary with my ex had we still been together. The weird thing is that our first "date" was in Totonto watching the fireworks on the beach. I was a little sad in the morning when going to work, but it wasn't sadness over our relationship ending. It was more nostalgia about what had happened (BBQ, fireworks, butterflies in the tummy :P ) as opposed to longing for it to happen again with him. I know that I will go see fireworks again some time with a guy I love and I will not even have one thought of my ex (cause I am rarely having thoughts about him now :P) and it will be great!

Now to totally swtich the subject:
Don't u love it when you pick up a book and its so good that you just can't put it down? Maybe its the fact that my last book "The Red Queen" was totally biology related and lacking a plot, but I immediately got into this one! It is awesome.. now I just can't put it down, so on my way to and from work I read it, listen to Amethystium on my ipoddy, and basically forget about this world :) Such a good feeling! hehe well guess what? I'm off to read my book!
Talk to you later everyone! :)

Weekend of fun :)

2005-06-27T20:49:00.000-04:00

Well, this weekend was awesome! :) Sat. night we were gonna go out (me, Bree, Britt and Ada) but by the time we all got to my house it was 11 pm! :P So that plan was scrapped. Either way we just hung out at home, ordered pizza, talked, drank and all that good stuff!

2 coolers and a few hours sleep later, I called work and asked if I could start my shift an hour late cause i was kinda hungover and my head hurt.. yes, i'm a cheap drunk. (the funny thing is, my manager had told me the night before not to drink too much cause I had work.. lol) :P Either way he was cool with it, and didn't seem TOO mad! Also that day (sunday) was the pride parade, but since I had to work Bree and Britt went to it alone.. hehe they said it was pretty intersting! (lots of drag queens and topless girls.. :P)

I got the day off from work today so Bree and I went out to the ROM and saw the feathered dinosaurs, egypt, and greece exhibits, but both of us got SOO cold (cause of the AC) that we decided not to take our time there! :P We walked down Younge, up Church, ate and got some ice-cream! :) hehe it was fun, rating guys without shirts on a scale of 1-10.. sounds like something you'd do when you are in highschool, but I never really went through that stage and since I'm single... why not?!?! haha :)

Anyways, we stopped at a park to relax and some weird 30 year old guy was staring right at me, and walked up and asked me for my number cause I am (according to him) "really pretty"... it was kinda odd.. of course I didn't give it to him and he left.. lol :) Vercheto said that that area is really sketchy... ewww.. lol :P plus he sounded pretty gay to me.. lol

Afterwards we walked around the mall... basically lots of walking going on, and then she caught her train for kingston! :) So this weekend was really fun! Bree got to see her boy; I got to hang out with people that I havn't seen since before the summer started, and I even got to meet a new friend (Ada) :) So that makes me feel good! hehe
Yay! :)

(oo and the ipod is awesome! got about 25 songs on it so far.. Now I finally have some good music to listen to while on the subway and bus) :)

A little bit of a rant! :)

2005-06-23T23:27:00.000-04:00

To people who love air conditioning this is gonna sound blasphemous, but I just don't get it.

What is this obsession with air conditioning? I mean I literally freeze all day; from the moment I step onto the air conditioned bus, to the air conditioned subway, then to the airconditioned mall, and then to my (even more) air-conditioned store. I feel like an ice cube! When did people in Canada get so warm that they needed to have the AC blasting at 15 degrees all day long? Do we get too much summer here, a whole 2 months, that people need to feel cold during it? 15?? I mean that is what its like during the fall and spring!! lol wow I am sure I sound so bitter but I really don't understand it. Maybe its just me, and I get cold too easily, but shivering all day through work, and being forced to buy myself a sweater to wear to work.. during the hottest days of summer, makes absolutely no sense to me! It's the summer, enjoy it! Feel a tiny bit warm and think to yourself "wow I'm warm, this is a lot better than winter :)" Or are we too preoccupied with not sweating or something to enjoy the heat. Maybe its for those people that can't stand the heat and always need to be cool... but when did they get so abundant that the entire mall thermometer had to be set to 18, and my Soft Moc store to 15??? Argh.. I just seriously don't get it.. I hate being cold.

Alright that's all I wanted to say! :) If anyone knows what is going on please let me know! I mean other than being a waste of energy I don't see the use of air-conditioning!!! :P

Also as a less bitter note I'm off to the Yorkdale mall tomorrow morning to get my new ipod mini!! :) Also I work from 12-9, so that should be fun.. And on Sat. my friends are coming for the night and to sleep over so that's gonna be awesome! :) But for the time being I'm alone, hehe 2 nights sleeping in a house all alone.. I can deal; once again its a good learning experience! hehe :)

Everybody do the blog! :)

2005-06-21T23:36:00.000-04:00

Holy the blogging trend has started! I wonder how long its gonna go on for? hehe :P

Well lets see, I finally get a day off, Yuppy! :) I also get paid on friday so that's gonna be pretty exciting! :) I thought of what would be fun to write about.. and I got to thinking about embarassing stories and that I should share some with my readers although they are never as funny in writing as they are when told in person.. lol
so here goes... (as a side note for some reason embarassing things happen to me only when in different countries!)

1.) I got mistaken for a prostitute! It's true, we (my sisters and parents) were walking around Geneva and all of a sudden this weird guy who had just gotten off his mo-ped grabbed my arm! I looked up at him totally puzzled and scared (I'm sure my face said it all :P) and actually shouted "ahhh!" in his face and then ran away! :P I ran into a store with my sisters and we were wondering what happened, and then we looked around the street and on every corner there was a prostitute posing and stuff!! So that was a little bit embarrasing.. i must have looked like a prostitute and I was only 15! on the other hand I guess I was a good looking one if he chose me.. umm..that's just wrong :P..

2.) In Italy (Pisa to be exact) there are such things as alarms in the shower.. its for use when something bad happens in the shower and you need assistance (apparently it happens often??? lol) Anyways it looks like one of those light switches that is just a string you pull (and only outside of the shower does it tell you its an alarm).
Because it was such a hot day I was thinking to myself, hmm maybe it puts the ventilator thing in the bathroom on so it'll get rid of the steam! I don't know why I even thought it would do that, since there were no grates in the ceiling or anything, but there I was pulling it repeatedly.. As excpected, it didn't do anything so when I got out of the shower I decided to ask my sisters what that string did.. They explained to me that it was the alarm and I felt so embarassed! I was like.. omg what if the guy at the lobby comes upstairs and is all panicky and wonders what happened and I just tell him that I was pulling it by accident.. plus I can't speak Italian!! I was feeling so embarassed that I decided to hide my face (in shame) in a white towel and after a few minutes of "oooo nooo I can't believe I rung the alarm", as my head emerged from the towel there was an enormous red stain on it.. Yes, my nose had started bleeding.. really bad!! So now if he walked up he'd see me, with my nose bleeding profusely onto the hotel towel and feel shitty for not having come right when the alarm rang, and I'd have to explain to him that it was my fault and nothing was wrong!!!! oi.. luckily he never came, and convenienty we went out for dinner just a few minutes later. If he did go up eventually he would have seen a completely wet orange towel drying on the bed (my sister tried to wash out the blood from it in the sink)..lol as a side note, if I were really dying in the shower.. I'd probably have died.. oh well, it was lucky for me at the time :P

3.)Have you ever needed to go to the bathroom (number 2) so bad that you felt you'd collapse? Well if u havn't then I'll tell you.. it really unpleasant (to put it mildly)! Especially if you are at Waterloo Station in London and don't know where the bathrooms are.. So here I am, getting total gut cramps and no-where to go! (I think it must have been an allergic reaction to the fish and chips I had just eaten). My sisters and Fritz were buying stuff from a "Boots" store (the equivalent to Shopper's), and I told them that I couldnt take it and rushed off in search of a bathroom! I was running around thinking "oh man oh man.. I gotta go sooo bad!!" and my vision was going blurry and I was sweating like hell! (lol.. those of you reading this are probably really grossed out, but it really is quite funny to remember it!) So I finally found the signs for where the bathrooms were and then I remembered that you have to pay.. and I had no money what-so-ever, not even the 10p that you need to get inside, but when I got there, lo-and-behold the coin machine was out of order!!! So it was free! :) I ran inside and took a nice umm... explosive S*#@!! That experience is the closest I think I've ever come to 1.) pooping my pants.. other than when I was a toddler 2.) beleving in a higher power that just happened to have broken the coin machine! :)

Anyways hopefully you guys enjoyed those, and if any of them don't make sense, u can feel free to comment and tell me so! :P And feel free to share your embarassing stories with me! :) I'd love to hear some!

Comfortable?

2005-06-17T00:20:00.000-04:00

Hey everyone! Alright I'm gonna spit out an idea about comfort. To be exact comfort zones. I'll use my personal experience so it'll make more sense.

I was so comfortable with my ex-boyfriend and our pseudo-relationship (it was pretty disfunctional towards the end) that I would lie to myself and say everything would get better, or that eventually he would get his ass in gear and everything would be ok. That was my comfort zone.. I was happy lying to myself as long as we were still together and I didn't have to be alone. As unhappy as I was, it seemed ok for me to live that lie.

And even though I was "comfortable", he was not and so he told me it had to end. Suddenly I found myself thrust out of my comfort zone and into a "state of uncertainty", being really alone for the first time in almost 2 years. Little did I know that I wasn't alone at all. It took a break-up to realize how many people really did care about me. As soon as I told my mom and dad they hugged me and we talked for a really long time. My sisters were both really supportive (obviously since I went to Ottawa for a week right away and now I'm in TO for the rest of the summer!) and all the rest of my family (you Gale) and friends who I've told have been really supportive :) Basically this has been a great experience, you realize immediately just how much you mean to people :)

Either way, continuing with my comfort zone theory, I basically had to find my comfort zone all over again. However, this time I chose to raise the bar for myself! I have heard that the best way to adapt to change it to always be slightly outside your comfort zone. Basically for the last few weeks that is exactly what I have been doing, and I have to say that is totally working! Only now am I settling in to a "zone" which I feel is right for me! :) Working with different people every day, becoming more open and more independent.

I am finally happy :)

yay for pictures! :)

2005-06-16T00:00:00.000-04:00

This is me, my hair isn't that great cause I need a haircut badly! But its me in my stylin' new pants, shoes and shirt! :)

So yup today was another good day :P Just worked a lot again and sold a few more shoes.. same old same old.. tomorrow I work from 2-9pm :)

Hmm what else is there to say.. I think that my younger grandma is one of the happiest people I know. She is always laughing and smiling, doesn't excessively judge or analyze people, and basically is really caring :) Sure sometimes she thinks she knows everything about everyone/everything, but that is her querk (and everyone has a few :) )!

As another question, but basically the complete opposite, who do you guys think is the most unhappy person you have ever met (and what makes them unhappy)? ( I have a pretty good answer for that one... :P)

Alrighty well that's it for now! *sleeeepy* there is nothing more rewarding then to go to sleep at night with your feet aching from being on your feet all day and having worked for 8 hours straight! :) It's a totally awesome feeling!

"Do you really like it, is it is it wicked?" :P

2005-06-14T23:53:00.000-04:00

Woo Hoo! I have sold $10,000 worth of shoes up to date! and I only got the job last week, so that's pretty good! :) My boss keeps asking if he can clone me (cause i'm so motivated and follow instructions etc.) and when I told him I had a twin he just kept laughing! :P lol

Anyways lets see.. the happiest person.. I would think it would be Mr. Saunders' wife.. she just seemed so nice and relaxed and totally content :) Always smily and cheerful. I'm sure that she has many things that she is unhappy about, but on the surface it seems like she's happy.. Who do you think the happiest person you know is? (question directed at anyone who feels like replying) :P

On a side note I do think this is the happiest I've been in a long long time! I don't like anyone at the moment but I just feel totally content as well! I guess I just didn't think that I could feel happy without a "significant other" in my life, but since coming to TO and learning to do things on my own it feels great! I talk to people on MSN, meet new people through work (both coworkers and customers), plus when I'm home I get to spend time with my favourite magical gnome and his parents! so that's really awesome as well :) Basically this is everything I could ask for and this summer has been amazing so far!

:) ok that's it for today! work from 12-9 tomorrow! :P

btw the transit system in toronto is very safe! (directed to a certain someone losing sleep due to worry over me taking the bus at night!:P)

"life is life na na na na na! "

2005-06-14T00:56:00.000-04:00

Well today was rather interesting.. I guess.. didn't make as much money (only sold $1000 of shoes) but still :P

A Bulgarian guy came in the store looking for a pair of shoes for his mom and sister in Bulgaria. After twenty minutes of talking to him in English I asked where he was from and then we switched over to Bulgarian and talked for a while. It was funny :P

Also I was waiting at the wrong bus station for the bus today (cause I was trying a new route) and then a woman came over and told me that they didn't come after 10pm or something, so that was kinda nice :P I mean I would have just sat there for a long time, so I like nice people like that hehe

other than that.. nothing much is new :P kinda boring day today but oh well, hopefully tomorrow will be better! :)

Oh and I had a really weird dream today which included me being really mad at Gerri and us not speaking to eachother! so it was kinda weird! :P I woke up irrationally angry with her! don't u just hate it when that happens? lol well there is more to the dream and why i was angry, but i'll just tell people if they care! hehe

that's all for now! :)

don't worry anonymous' I won't foget you guys!

2005-06-12T22:30:00.000-04:00

Wow, thanks for the comments everyone! Next time leave your names as well please! :P although I can figure who wrote what so its all good
(and don't worry I won't forget you "anonymous" and I can get u any kind of shoes you want, but you have to come visit and pick them out yourselves! haha ;)

Today was a good day at work.. I sold $2000 of shoes, so for a sunday that's pretty good :) For my first payday i'm going to have worked about 76 hours, so my boss said that is going to be something like $800 for me (with taxes deducted!!) that makes me pretty happy! ipod shuffle here I come! :)

oo and people who can't speak ANY english and come looking for shoes are irritating!! :P so frustrating.. u want to help them and they are pointing at shoes with shoelaces and saying something in a different language, and u are supposed to deduce that they want shoes without shoelaces! :P I know it doesn't sound too bad, but trust me, its really difficult to figure out what they want, especially when there are lots more people in the store that need your attention! hehe

btw if anyone has any questions I can answer them, just leave me comments of what you would like to know.. hehe and if u are "anonymous" that would be cool too! I can answer anonymous comments :P haha actually that sounds like it would be kinda fun! aannyywaayyss.. I'm off! only work for 4 hours tomorrow, so i'm counting that as a day off since I work for the next 7 days straight ( four days of 8hour shifts and three days of 4hours shifts)

:)

p.s. Gale don't worry u didn't steal my idea! :) and I got the first post! haha love ya girly, and feel better cause you are awesome!!! :)

realizations :P (this one's a long one, so get ready!)

2005-06-11T21:27:00.000-04:00

Well, another day at work, and this time I sold $3000 worth of shoes.. which for me ends up making me about $14/hour! :) for 8 hours.. that's not too shabby in one day haha, and tomorrow is another grueling day of work :P oh well who am I to complain?? its money! lol

On a side note, I came to the realization that if my ex-b/f and I hadn't broken up.. I would never have come to TO, and would never have gotten this job, or this much money, or this experience. After this summer in TO I think I am going to be:

1.) more independent: cause I have to take the subway and get around by myself, and basically do things on my own when I am downtown :)
2.) more confident/self-assured: since I am selling shoes like crazy
3.) more outgoing: since I need to approach total strangers and ask them to buy shoes from me! haha seems to be working for now :P
(if anyone can think of anything else I am going to be.. then let me know :P)

So in general every bad thing can have something good come out of it. At first I thought the breakup was a bad thing.. (though seriously I havn't cried half as much as I thought I would, and I havn't had ANY evil "stay-up-late" bawling sessions since the break-up.. and I was having some of those even while we were going out!) :P Basically I feel a lot of pressure off my shoulders.. now I need to take care of myself, and even though I do miss the good times, I am happy that the bad times are over and will never have to do that again!! :) Next time I will be wiser in who I choose to go out with, and I won't try to change the little things about him to compensate for some the big things that are lacking! (cause there won't be any big things lacking! :P)

So that keeps me going, and i'm genuinely happy with my life at the moment! :) Sept. starts the new school year, and a new year to hangout with/find new friends.. and maybe guys (with my new outgoing attitude that shouldn't be a problem really :P rriiiggghhttt... haha) but for now I am totally comfortable with where I am and I'm just gonna enjoy the summer for what its worth!

Btw today was an amazingly hot day and its so awesome! :)

I look as good as most women in the world! (LOL)

2005-06-09T23:14:00.000-04:00

Holy, I sold $1800 worth of shoes today from 3-9pm! It was insane :P My boss is funny, he thinks i've never done any hard work in my life cause of the way I hold a mop, and cut up boxes (he said I look dainty and fragile).. yea whatever dude! :P I do hard work... when i need to.. lol And both him and my assistant manager thought I was like 27 or 28! And I don't look that old at all! I think it must be the nice dress clothes and my mature/professional attitude :P haha that's it.. right well they thought a person going into 3rd year Uni. should be older than 19, but they are kinda out of the loop cause neither of them at in Uni :P

Either way its a pretty fun job and I'm having lots of fun in TO! I don't work tomorrow hehe so I get to relax and let my feet recooperate from the non-stop standing and walking! Ohh and if anyone needs any info on shoes u can ask me :P I'm learning quickly and I can give pointers as to what you should look for! hehe

Ohh and if you wanna come visit me, just go to the Soft Moc in the Eaton Centre, there's only one and its near the foodcourt with Jimmy the Greek and stuff! haha

well that's if for today :P

Hi, Can I help you find anything? Oh those look great on you! :P

2005-06-08T12:13:00.000-04:00

Yay! First "real" day of work, from 2-9! It was lots of fun and totally hectic at times! :) I was training for the first bit and then from about 5 to 9 i got to actually sell shoes! And guess what?? I sold $980 worth of shoes today!!! Everyone working there (including the manager) was totally amazed at how much I sold cause its my first day! :P but I think its just beginners luck so we'll see what happens tomorrow! I Can't belive how many people like Birkenstocks! haha I sold 3 today! :P

haha I work tomorrow from 3-9, then sat from 10-7 and sun from 12-6 :) so yay! lots of work for me! hah. Hmm other than that nothing much to report... got some mayo (from a taco) on my pants.. lol so exciting! :P but I'm kinda tired so I'm off to bed! :)

I swear eventually there will be more interesting stuff on this blog besides me working!! :P

1st day at the Cuddly Dwarf! :)

2005-06-07T21:23:00.000-04:00

I had my first work day today! Worked for 2 hours and basically was trained to find shoes and put them away and stuff. Tomorrow I go in from 2pm and work till 9pm, then afterwards there is a meeting with Clarks shoe company to which I need to go :) Lots of training, lots of walking, but for money so its all good! I can't believe how busy it was today! I mean he said their usual sales are about $3,500-$4,000 a day!! and sometimes even $6000 like yesterday! so that's gonna be awesome!(no time to get bored) :)

Also earlier today Lucy (a friend of the family's) wanted me and Viara to work at her store for a few hours so we did :) it was pretty fun cause its a very cute antique store and we got $20 each for doing practically nothing! heh

On a different note, my ex-boyfriend emailed me today saying he's moving to Vancouver in September. That was a little shocking but I think its a good thing. :) I mean we have seperate lives now, and we aren't goinng to get back together, so in many ways this is for the best :) Tomorrow makes one month of us being broken up, so for that little time I think i'm doing pretty well :) We now move on with our lives, and I have faith (not in god :P) that my life will just keep getting better. Sure its hard sometimes, and thinking about it makes me sad.. but overall I am coping well and as I said it'll only keep getting better from here :)

If anyone has any comments on these "developments" please feel free to comment! hehe :P (especially you Gerri, but anyone can lol!!)

Gonna work at Soft Moc aka. cuddly dwarf! :P

2005-06-06T21:43:00.000-04:00

Thanks for the posts guys :) hehe they were awesome!

I went to Jean Machine today and had the interview; it went pretty well and he said he's got a few more interviews to do and that he'll call me by next monday :P little does he know that I already got a job! haha I called the manager at Soft Moc and I start on Wednesday!! so exciting!

It's weird cause it only took 4 days of applying to get a job and I start this week! :) I have figured that since this is probably my first and last ever "retail" job (since I'm going to be applying for SWEP next year with Queens) I would rather work at Soft Moc (a high end shoe place) than Jean Machine or Footlocker, cause its a little bit more relaxed, and there will be older people for me to help. No bribing or stealing, as we were extensively warned about happening at the Footlocker interview. Plus its in the Eton Centre, so on my lunch break I can shop! hehe

On a lighter note... Ipod mini here I come! :) too bad that at the moment I have 95 cents in my bank account! hehe

Other than that, I went out for a jog/walk and worked out a bit with Viara (my older sister) so that was fun :) Julian is a little sweety pie who keeps smiling more and more every day and was smiling a lot at Fritz (my older sisters husband) today when he got home from work so that was really cute! :)

I got a job! :)

2005-06-05T23:23:00.000-04:00

Yay! I got a job at Soft Moc (a shoe store) in the Eton Centre!! Its going to be 35-40 hours a week and I get $7 an hour plus 2% commission on each pair of shoes I sell! :) That makes me really happy! hehe

The manager was so nice, he kept saying how awesome it would be if I could work there, and how he thinks I'll do great and all that stuff! :) He doesn't mind that I have no retail experience, or that I'm going back to Kingston in the fall, so that's a plus! :)

I also went to RW&Co. and bought myself 2 skirts, a shirt and some pants (all dressy) cause I need fancier clothes in general, and for a job or interviews! :) I have another interview tomorrow for Jean Machine, and I'm gonna go just for the practice, but I think that the shoe store will be my choice! :) something about working in the Eton Centre! hehe its so awesome!

(someone comment on my blog! lol j/k :P)

yay :)

Another day in TO :)

2005-06-04T22:27:00.000-04:00

Wow, lots of fun today! my parents came to Toronto to visit in the morning! :) We went to stores and visited people and it was lots of fun! My older sister and her husband also got a 32" LCD TV which is awesome!

We watched "Great Expectations" as the first movie on it and it was cool cause its an old movie that reminds me of Regina and its got Ethan Hawke, back when he actually used to look attractive! Oh and its got Mono- life in mono (one of my fav. songs) in it to so that's a bonus!! :)

Tomorrow I have 2 job interviews but they should be alright :) One at Soft Moc (in the Eton Centre) and another at some small clothing store on Queen St. that I don't even remember applying to! lol and even though I am ahead of myself a little since I don't have too much money at the moment, I'm downloading a bunch of songs on Limewire already for when I get an mp3 player :) (hopefully an ipod mini!)

some really good songs are: (according to me :P)
mono- life in mono
Laze - stepping out
dj tiesto - adagio for strings
Benassi bros - make me feel
benassi bros - hit my heart
global deejays - sound of san francisco
david morales - how would u feel
eric pryds - call on me
groove coverage - runaway
well that's just a few, but they are good lol :) hehe oh and BMPtv is good for ideas! that and dreamdance.de hehe :P so happy ! :)

Yay :)

2005-06-03T17:36:00.000-04:00

Alright so I went for my first job interview today! I think it went pretty well actually. It was a group interview and the manager asked us questions in turn, so that was kinda interesting :) It was me, another girl and a guy. Even tho they both had retail experience I think I did well with answering the questions, and since the manager was in micro-biology at one time I think he liked the fact that I was in biology :)

I also managed to get downtown all by myself, and back home after the interview hehe so that makes me feel happy! That was my only reservation about applying downtown and its actually not bad at all :) All you need to do is take a bus, then the subway once going west, then south, and you are done :) hehe I love TO!

Everything seems to be getting better! I'm just really happy right now! Living in TO with my older sister, her husband and their baby is awesome! I'm really happy that they don't mind me being here and living with them!! :)

I don't have anything to worry about anymore, just look forward to life!

yay :)

First Blog ever!

2005-06-03T03:26:00.000-04:00

Wow, my first blog ever :P so exciting! lol

hmm, today I applied to 64 places downtown Toronto. It was kinda fun, after the whole nervousness went away! After the first.. 20 I felt really confident and just smily and cheerful it was cool :) I feel like my self-esteem has totally increased since.. this morning!! :) It's awesome

Toronto's been really fun so far! (thanks for taking me in guys I really appreciate it!) Just relaxing and taking it easy, well except for the mad job hunting! 96 resume's in 4 days, that and trying to potty train my nephew, baby Julian! He is so cute :) He's such a good baby, he's already potty trained at 1 month, genius! :)

Alright so i have an interview at footlocker tomorrow! It's kinda scary since I only own two pairs of shoes and I need to make my way downtown TO by myself and back! :) but luckily I have a phone if I get lost or something, and I can always make stuff up about the shoe situation ;) I also have an interview on Monday for Jean Machine, so that should be fun!

well that's it for my first blog! wooo! :P