Another pic and some random thoughts
A pic of (from left to right) Galeto (my awesome cuzzie) Me, my twin sister Gerri, and the little tiny cutie of cuteness Julian!! (which was taken this weekend after all our awesome haircuts and during the festivities of 2 anniversaries!)
Anyways today was not too eventful. But I would like to talk about something. It has to do with the "high" you get from being liked of from those fleeting moments of liking someone. Is it normal to be that way? I mean just as an example with the hottie at the pub . I looked at him for a brief moment and I thought "wow he is so attractive", after-which I felt the need to keep looking at him and eventually ask him to dance. I mean he is just a random guy at a random pub.
I wonder to myself, is it something that I do to subconsciously keep myself pre-occupied? Is it some weird primal instinct? lol cause when I was with my ex I never had feelings like that. I didn't feel the need to look at other guys, or to constantly try to gain their attention. In fact I was totally content with having his attention and only his :) I do think it would be really easy to settle into a routine like that again, but I just wonder, is my feeling of wanting to be liked coming from me being insecure, or me wanted a man's love again (not so much physically but mentally :P). I guess the only one that can answer that question is me, and since I currently don't have a love interest I shall persevere! :)
But I do wonder if others feel like that on occasion. I love having a crush on someone. You watch for every move, every inclination that that other person might possibly like you. He looks at you and you think "wow he must like me" or you obsess about being with them, and how awesome it would be. :P Seriously though, most of the people I know aren't single, and until recently I wasn't either, so these feelings (which I remember having for a certain someone -- A.) are kind of like a drift down memory lane. Lets hope the next time I have a serious crush it will end better than that one did.. haha :P
Either way I would appreciate comments on these little thoughts of mine hehe! :)
posted by Sunchyme at 11:27 PM
1 Comments:
OK, here I go with my suggestions:
1) Forget about your hang-ups about physical love. In fact, since you knew nothing about the "hottie"'s mental faculties, your glances were driven by primal sexual lust. So stop denying it and just enjoy it.
2) This is more of an opinion than a suggestion, but everyone has the need to be loved and liked. And those are two different things. Being in a relationship does not mean that you should stop enjoying others' attention, only that, of all the possible suitors, you chose ONE. I have always loved being liked and admired by people who couldn't have me. That's the biggest high, and it's what makes the world go around.
3) Everyone starts out being 'some random person in some random place'. Unless, of course, you end up being married to your cousin or some childhood friend.
Bottom line: have fun, be less self-effacing and don't deny your feelings or disguise them.
Phew. Out.
11:45 AM
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